On the morning of July 14th I woke up from a rough night of sleep. It was a bright sunny day, but it was a dark day. It just didn’t feel right to me. I was house and animal sitting for a customer. I realized that I had to let the dogs out. I let the dogs out and got on my laptop to see what was happening in the world. I went on Twitter to see the hashtag #RIPCoryMonteith. I was just shocked. I kept thinking to myself: ‘What? No way! Cory’s not dead. This is a hoax, right? It has to be. This is just too funny. I gotta check his Twitter.’
I then checked the news online. It had been true. It finally hit me like a tidal wave. It came crashing down on me so hard. Cory Monteith was gone. He had been taken from us. Just after he changed his picture on Twitter and tweeted about Sharknado. I bet he still thinks how stupid he was for those tweets being his last. But, how could this happen? Why did this happen? I immediately went into a nervous breakdown. I literally went outside and screamed.
It wasn’t a windy day out, but the next thing I know a gust of wind came up and then everything was calm. Was that Cory? It had to have been him. It had to have been some comfort because that gust of wind was so random and yet so soothing to me. I went back inside and continued on with my nervous breakdown. I literally would not stop crying. It didn’t help that I was listening to I’ll Stand By You on repeat. It didn’t really help with all of the crying. I can assure you, I was not the only one who did this.
But what can you do?
Of course as soon as everything died down, blame was put on Lea and Ryan, but the fact is… addiction is not something to put blame on other people for. Who knows what made Cory put that needle in his arm that night? I sure don’t, but for some odd reason there’s a group of people who just think they know everything. No, you don’t. Nobody’s ever gonna know why it had to happen. Holding a grudge like this and pointing the finger at people isn’t gonna do anything.
It’s not gonna bring him back.
Cory Monteith was a one of a kind. His presence on this Earth was brief, but it’s clear that he made quite an impact on many people’s lives. He did with me. From someone who comes from a family that suffers from addiction, I had someone to look up to in a way. Everyone has their demons. You just have to decide whether or not they are worth beating. Unfortunately, his demons were a lot more powerful than everyone thought. Some people believe in balancing out life and that God works in mysterious ways. It’s just a pain in the ass to figure out as to why they had to take Cory.
A year later, I’m still trying to figure that out myself.